Her Heart…Deceased

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Today I quit on my heart,
And today I wished it was vice versa.

I was tired of all the lies it tried to feed me.
All the yearnings.
All the waterfall of emotion it brought to me.
All the Light it sought to remind me.

Today I didn’t want it.
Contrary to the popular song,
Today I stopped believing and forced the bleeding succubus to leave me the hell alone.

I catapulted into anger,
Said fuck it and embraced the fear.

And shut the whole system down.

I had too much to lose.
I don’t have much of understanding of necessary hurt.

Of human beings and our mistakes.

Maybe tomorrow would be different.

 

***

~I.L.U*

Quanisha A McGruder

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